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| I miss you. I still think about you. I know you think badly of me and it kills me. Because what you think isn't true but I know its easier if you believe it to be so. You never came back to talk to me so I know you're gone forever and sometimes I can't help but cry over it even now. Especially now when I should be so happy all the time but I can't stop thinking of you and that one time. I want you in my life, I miss you, my friend. Our talk of books and your love that rivals mine. Only you and I know that thats the way to end it. Talk of books. Thats how it started after all. | |
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| When I lost faith You believed in me When I stumbled You were right there For every act of love you've done I owe you one
There were hard times I know I survived Just because you stayed by my side With all I have, with all I am I promise you all my life
Whenever the road is too long Whenever the wind is too strong Wherever the journey may lead to I will be there for you I will be there for you
Through sorrow Or the darkest night When there's heartache Deep down inside Just like a prayer, you will be there And I promise you all my life
Whenever the road is too long Whenever the wind is too strong Wherever the journey may lead to I will be there for you I will be there for you
Whenever the road is too long Whenever the wind is too strong Wherever the journey may lead to I will be there for you I will be there for you
I'll always be there - Mood:contemplative

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| I don’t need a lot of things I can get by with nothing Of all the blessings life can bring I’ve always needed something But I’ve got all I want When it comes to loving you You’re my only reason You’re my only truth
I need you like water Like breath, like rain I need you like mercy From heaven’s gate There’s a freedom in your arms That carries me through I need you
You’re the hope that moves me To courage again You’re the love that rescues me When the cold winds, rage And it’s so amazing ’cause that’s just how you are And I can’t turn back now ’cause you’ve brought me too far
I need you like water Like breath, like rain I need you like mercy From heaven’s gate There’s a freedom in your arms That carries me through I need you Oh yes I do
I need you like water Like breath, like rain I need you like mercy From heaven’s gate There’s a freedom in your arms That carries me through I need you Oh yes I do I need you I need you | |
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| Cor blimey, I taste like Tea.
I am a subtle flavour, quiet and polite, gentle, almost ambient. My presence in crowds will often go unnoticed. Best not to spill me on your clothes though, I can leave a nasty stain.
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| Result #2 Albus Dumbledore is glad you are an Order member but thinks youre too anxious. Lord Voldemort sees you as a major threat and wants to have you killed as soon as possible.
Minerva McGonagall thinks you misbehave way too much. Severus Snape hates you. Rubeus Hagrid thinks youre a good person. Horace Slughorn thinks you were a brilliant student with great potential.
Sirius Black loves you with all his heart and would kill for you. Remus Lupin thinks youre a great friend. Bill Weasley is secretly madly in love with you.
Lucius Malfoy acts like he hates you but actually has sick fantasies about you. Bellatrix Lestrange wants to personally torture and then kill you. Peter Pettigrew thinks youre scary. | |
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| 1. Work is pretty good. Not sure if the other office girl likes me but it doesn't -really- matter. We don't talk in the office we just get on with it, which is good. I like having loads of paperwork to do and stuff...to do.... still only four hours a day but hopefully it goes to full time! At the rate they are paying me that'd be a miracle and Dan wouldn't even have to work.. *giggles* Huzzah for overpaying people!
2. Got our apartment!!!!!!! Well, townhouse really. It's 1200sq feet and its purdy and stuff. Well, we haven't actually seen the one we're having. They were gonna give us this one... in on October 5th but then called and said those people had to stay an extra month but they had one avaliable.. next week!!! We were like eek, no way! And so then Dan called yesterday and they said they had arranged one for us to move into October 9th! It's further away from the head office which is good... for you know.. hiding cats and stuff. *giggles* and faces the pretty courtyard. We'll definitely have a 'house warming' party once its all prettified and stuff.
3. Dan has been studying php. Yay! R has a server he wants Dan to work on and wants him to help with some stuff. He's so excited that Dan is picking this stuff up and I'm excited too. Wahoo! Dan gets off work in 6 weeks so I'm getting him to study 24/7! I'm a mean wifey. :(
4. Sleeping pills are my lifesaver. I love them. They say on the package they aren't addicting... but I think mentally, I am. I sleep so much better wtih them and am actually more or less rest in the morning. Except the past couple of days I've been feeling run down and blargh. Dunno what up. Probably just stress. THATS neverending.
5. Dan thinks I should take up a hobby. I want to learn how to knit! Does anyone know how to knit and can you teach me? I want to make scarves and blankets... only squares! Nothing complicated! :D
6. And hopefully Leah is coming to church with us sunday. :D It'll be so much fun. I'm enjoying church. It's different from what I'm used to. But very welcoming and inviting. And R is a fun sunday school teacher!
Um so thats it for now. Just figured I should do some sort of update even though it's not very interesting. Um..so there it is! Love you all! *hugs* | |
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 Power out at clinic today. Did random stuff. Got told I'd quickly get in trouble if I showed AFFECTION for the clinic cat?!?! Apparently nobody likes him so they kick him out everytime he tries to go inside. He's YOUR cat FFS! He's the sweetest thing in the world and I adore him. I didn't even know he existed until today. How crap is that? Anyways, they sent me home early. Really greatly dislike this job. 'Office Manager' is the owner's daughters and today instead of worrying about the vaccines going bad in the fridges she worried about her ice cream melting in her house and whined, and i mean, WHINED to her mom about what she was supposed to do and for her mom to take care of it cuz she had to go and visit her husband in prision. Uh huh. Nice. Generally run down and grrry at the moment. Dunno why. Mountains looked so huge and misty and gorgeous on the way home though. Can't wait till Sunday. :D Yay for going to church! Ack, I need to buy a skirt before then. Found one, just need to get it now! Roll on the weekend! (Now to get Dan to get me chinese food to compensate for his Star Wars Galaxies night...) | |
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| Found while looking for a new quote for Lylia... gonna start living like this.
"An emotion is an automatic response, an automatic effect of man's value premises. An effect, not a cause. There is no necessary clash, no dichotomy between man's reason and his emotions—provided he observes their proper relationship. A rational man knows—or makes it a point to discover—the source of his emotions, the basic premises from which they come; if his premises are wrong, he corrects them. He never acts on emotions for which he cannot account, the meaning of which he does not understand. In appraising a situation, he knows why he reacts as he does and whether he is right. He has no inner conflicts, his mind and his emotions are integrated, his consciousness is in perfect harmony. His emotions are not his enemies, they are his means of enjoying life. But they are not his guide; the guide is his mind. This relationship cannot be reversed, however. If a man takes his emotions as the cause and his mind as their passive effect, if he is guided by his emotions and uses his mind only to rationalize or justify them somehow—then he is acting immorally, he is condemning himself to misery, failure, defeat, and he will achieve nothing but destruction—his own and that of others." -Ayn Rand, (interview), | |
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| Good News : Got offered a job. Early hours so still have most of the day left to do stuff. Basically be working same hours as Dan. Have another interview on Friday that would be AWESOME if I got so put off my start date until Monday. Fingers crossed. That'd be great.
Bad News : Best friend dislikes my husband and by extension, myself. Um. Well. We'll see how this goes. Big blow and hun I love you, you know that. Yes this hasn't turned out so great but if it needs to be said, it needs to be said and worked on so that we can really all be friends. You said yourself meds would help. I know they do and I hope they do for no one else's sake but your own. Maybe someday soon we'll be in a place where we can go and make s'mores--with british chocolate. :) And maybe NOT talk about Kingdoms for once?
Anyways. Kinda in a numb mood today. Had a great day with A. Got some sandwiches and went up to the canyon and talked for a few hours. Then watched some Kitchen Nightmares. Gordan Ramsay is a really nice guy in England! Silly Americans making him all mean and stuff. Hmph.
Um. Thats it. Go my life.
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| "INSERT LOTS OF SWEARING*
I give up. White flag. Surrender. Any friends out there wanna tell me they secretly hate me? Want to run me out of Utah, the one place I really love living? Want one of my loved ones to die? Cats? Come on, what next? I seriously, give up.
Remember those pesky people from Colorado who ruined my life? What a coincidence that they decide to pick today to e-mail me after a year of silence.
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